Tuesday, April 24, 2012

My Most Beautiful Thing


            The most beautiful thing I ever received was a check for $1750. 
            I was pregnant, and although my husband and I both worked, neither of us had health insurance. I dreaded giving birth at the crowded county hospital where once, after my mother had been rushed there in siren-screaming ambulance, she'd still had to run around hospital floors to get her own medicine.
            Instead, I dreamed of giving birth at Illinois Maonic's natural childbirth wing, where the walls were painted in gentle pastel colors, where you were encouraged to write up your own birthing plan and bring your favorite music, lotions, and other comfort items. The cost: $1750.
            On a whim, I put down a fifty dollar deposit, although I had no idea where the rest of the money would come from.
            Then, one morning, my mother's brother called. A great aunt had decided to sell the family land in Ireland and split the money among the remaining relatives. Since my mother was deceased, I was to get her share--$1750.
            Money from the land of my ancestors would help towards the birth of my child.
            Every time life becomes challenging, I think: 1750. When my marriage became rough, my ex-husband leaving before my son was a year old. When my child suffered because of routine broken promises from his dad. (At age three, my son said, "Don't tell me when Daddy says he's going to visit. I don't want to be disappointed.") During divorce messiness and battles over custody and visitation. When paycheck-to-paycheck money became tight.
            But the 1750 was a gift reminding me that God would help me raise my son. As I knelt in church reading words inscribed in gold paint: "Come to me, all ye who labor and are burdened, and I will give ye rest," I could hear God saying, "It's going to be OK."
            And somehow, it has been OK. Somehow, as a single mom working for social service agencies, I managed to send my son to Catholic School all the way through high school. He's now in college, almost done with his second year, majoring in math hoping to become a high school math teacher. He has a healthy, fun group of friends--they call themselves the honor guard. When one friend's grandmother died, the honor guard sat together at the funeral, a visible show of support.
            At some point, my son was able to push aside his hurt from his father's rejection and move on. He believes in happiness--that making others happy is what makes you happy--and he is the most laid-back person I know--except when he's watching his White Sox, Blackhawks, Bulls, or Bears! 
            1750. It paid for my son's birth, but just as important, it gave me hope--a very beautiful thing. Thank you, God. 

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Thursday, February 11, 2010

Try 100words.com!




When I neglect my blog, this is what I'm doing--writing 100-word entries for 100words.com. I learned of this site in November 2008 in a NaNoWriMo forum. I'd just earned my MFA and learned how word limits inspire better writing, forcing you to pick the best possible word, not a fuzzy approximation.

So far, I've completed 10 "batches"--a month's worth of 100 words. Some are diary entries that tell details, thoughts, and feelings about a day's worth of living. Others are instances from the middle-grade novel I'm revising. Recently, I'm writing memoir entries--100 words for each year of my life.

Check it out!

Friday, February 5, 2010

Letter to the Editor

Last month, my six-word bio was published--today, my 100-word letter to the editor was in the paper:

A letter in the Feb. 3 Chicago Sun-Times equates financial success with hard work, and lack of such success to "loafing."

Sometimes, maybe--but financial success is also tied to choice of career. A prime example is day care. Day care teachers typically earn pitifully low salaries, often barely above minimum wage--but what job can be more important--or demanding--than nurturing young children?

Teachers in Catholic elementary schools work very hard but do not have the highest of salaries; neither do employees of nonprofit social service agencies.

These professionals are far from lazy. Success--and one's value to the world--is not just measured by income level.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

February vs. March

I have always hated January and February, the subzero windchill and slick ice and mounds of snow that Chicago likes to bestow as after-holiday gifts. November and December are warmed by the Hallelujah Chorus and Joy to the World and neighborhood houses glowing with red and green, with Santa Clauses and angels. But after Dick Clark and Ryan Seacrest have signed off, it's back to ordinary time, and winter is drab again.

So every year I look forward to March 1 the way kids look forward to Christmas Eve--I want spring and leaves on trees and dandelions and sunscreen.

But yesterday, when I said to someone, "I can't wait till March 1," I stopped. Wait a second. Do I really want to rush time this year? When spring is over this year, my son will packing up for college; this will be my last February with my son around. End of August, when days are still long and trees still green, he'll be off on campus, starting a new chapter of his life--and I'll be starting a new one of my own.

Sure, I plan to enjoy living alone--as always, I have plenty of writing projects lined up; I've begun to practice on Red (my violin) again; I'm contemplating volunteering at Open Books where you can read to a kid once a week. Never mind my actual 8 to 4:30 job--never mind hanging out with friends and family!

Still, this chapter of my life--raising my son--has been a good one. Our homelife is happy and peaceful--a blessing that only those from disfunctional families of origin can truly appreciate--and my son is good company. So now especially I want to savor the times he steps out of his White Sox shrine room to share school gossip or sports tidbits with me, the times he'll still take a 7-11 walk with me. While I'm excited for my son and his new college life, and am confident my new life chapter will be a good one, too, maybe February is OK this year.

But, February? Listen up! Enjoy this year--next year I'll be rushing you again!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Revison Blues

I thought my novel "Roll Call by the Elephants" was publishable; I've shared it with friends who raved about it, and I've received "good" rejections, editors wanting to see more after reading the sample chapters. But there's the rub as good ol' Shakespeare would say--as I reread "Roll Call," chapter by chapter making notes, some of the chapters are quite good, but some are not--especially the one that deals with N. and B. breaking up. The story of their romance is weak, albeit realistic. Some guys do just dump you with no reason why, with little explanation--but that won't work in fiction because the nosy reader wants to know why. Why does B. just dump N.? In my original draft, N. and B. have sex and she gets pregnant and has a miscarriage, but later I decided that that just doesn't fit, so instead she keeps her virginity and wonders if that's why he breaks up with her. In addition to B.'s focus on his art, and not wanting anything to get in its way.

Now I'm wondering--should I go back to the edgier version? Which version best fits the theme--that people who meet as strangers on the job can actually become family, that friendship can help people overcome hardships. I think the recent version is best--so N. keeps her virginity for the moment and no miscarriage. But why does B. dump N.? Is it just because he's enamored with his art? Or is there something about N. he doesn't like? Or does he meet someone else?

This romance is a subplot and shouldn't take over the entire book, but I have questions to answer.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Plot Problems

Is it OK that for my NaNoWriMo novel, "The Writing Class," I'm making my favorite library the site, and the time last fall, as election day nears, my main character an Obama supporter and campaign volunteer? The "real" writing class took place thirty years ago at a different North side library, and today there's actually a writing organization, Neighborhood Writers Alliance--wouldn't some of my writers belong to that group, not the imaginary one I'm creating? Why would there even be a class at this library when that other organization exists? Am I being lazy with my research? But there's different schools of thought on that--most agree that yes, you have to do research---but not during the first draft, now is the time to let your imagination fly. Besides--although publication is always a goal and dream, that's not what NaNo is about. NaNo is a time to stretch my wings and enjoy writing a massive amount of pages, letting my characters take over and letting reality and real-life considerations disappear, forgetting my pile of rejection letters and the well-thumbed Writer's Market and my other neglected drafts of novels. Maybe my 2009 NaNo work with be salvageable, adding to NaNoWriMo's official list of published works--or maybe only fit for the blue recycling bin out back. Either way, I have fun, grow as a writer, meet a challenge, enjoy reading forums from other eccentric writers, even go to a write-in or two. I will write as the muse directs and forget reality!